Has I was allowing numerous lies to enter my mind. I was beginning to think they weren't lies anymore. I grew frustrated with myself, and my shortcomings. I grew frustrated with what I thought I should have. I grew frustrated with my current position that I was in.
As I started to sway into my apathetic thinking. I realized I have gone down this road already. That I had always been selfish, and wanted all the glory. I want everything my way. I grew frustrated with God not giving my due. In actuality I deserved absolutely nothing.
My mind began to run through all sorts of emotions. My thoughts were fumbling over a closet full of stuff. I started to realize that, I have a father who was rooting for me. A father who made me wonderfully and fearlessly. I then saw a rock in my room. Written on the rock was Romans 8:31. I stared at it for a good 10 minutes. As I absorbed this rock, and its message. I realized that I had gone down this road of an apathetic mindset, I'm worth nothing, feel sorry for me attitude. I was allow condemnation to creep in.
So I went to the good book read Romans 8:31. Already knowing what the verse said. But I didn't believe it in my heart or mind. As I began to meditate on this verse. I started to smile, and I yelled in happiness. It hit me, God is for me. So simple, yet so hard to digest at times. Since this nice reminder I have reversed, and taken a different road. A road with God, and no apathy. A road I am not familiar with, but I'm sure it will be oodles of fun!
Romans 8:31 What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us?
Monday, July 28, 2008
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Teen Pregnancy, Hollywood Style
Ran into an interesting article today. Over teen pregnancy, and how its presented by Hollywood. The article talks about the issues Hollywood is avoiding. Enjoy!
http://www.newsweek.com/id/148437>1=43002
http://www.newsweek.com/id/148437>1=43002
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
No Fooling God
I'm guilty of trying to fool God. Noticed I used the word try. I've learned over time God is no fool. So why do we try to hide things from him? We think he doesn't know what we are doing. We can fool humans fairly easily. But it's not even worth trying to fool God. When you try to fool God, your only fooling yourself. So next time you try to fool God. Just don' try at all.
Character is what you are in the dark- D.L. Moody
God knows all our true stripes, even in the dark.
Character is what you are in the dark- D.L. Moody
God knows all our true stripes, even in the dark.
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Blocking The World Out
As I always do I went into reflection. On the nice green grass at Mary Hardin - Baylor University super summer had came to a close. Every one's tears and emotions were unleashed to the max. My family group huddled all together for the last prayer with each other. Our family group saw addictions break, doubts destroyed, and saw birth to hope. As one of the leaders of the group I learned a lot. I came in with a bad attitude. Towards the age group I was charge of(13-14), but God completely jacked me up. I learned a lot along the way. But one thing I love about super summer is the focus. The focus is always on God and his awesomeness. What I learned and practiced this week was blocking the world out. To take time everyday no computer, no phone(that means texting) and no distractions period. To talk to your father who loves you beyond measure. To get into his word and absorb it like a sponge. Ultimately to focus on God who happens to be bigger than the world.
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Black President?
Ran into a interesting article today. Over the comments of Jesse Jackson about senator Obama. The article is compelling in the sense of how will America act if Obama is elected president.
God Only Knows Enjoy!
http://www.theroot.com/id/47225?GT1=38002
God Only Knows Enjoy!
http://www.theroot.com/id/47225?GT1=38002
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
The Human Effect
One thing I love about mission trips. Is you get to see your fellow church buddies. In a different light.
As I was dancing like a idiot an idiot talking in Spanish. Andy ran up the stairs of the kid's area of the church. He asked that we all come down. The whole church wanted to pray for us before we left. As the prayer wrapped up, and the church members filed in to bid their farewells.
I was the last one in line so I saw every one's reaction to everyone else. Everyone was crying, smiling, or exchanging contact information. The pastor's wife came to me in a pool of tears. I embraced her gave her my sentiments. As the this cycle of farewells continued. I saw the reaction people had with each other. We just spent 4 in half days with this church and people who embody it. I saw the "human effect" the effect we have on each other. One that is powerful and is shared with whom is willing to feel it's effects. The effects of love, passion, trust, friendship.
It was cool to see everyone crying, and letting their emotions get the best of them. That we had developed a bond with this church and the congregation. A bond that was formed in 4 in half days. A bond that is now cherished, and bound to be remembered.
The Human Effect is shows that at the end of the day. All humans are the same in some many ways. But it also shows us that. When you knock down walls and build bridges and allow people to enter in. Crying, producing relationship's, and adding to your already big family. Is only hard cold evidence of the effect it has on all of us.
As I was dancing like a idiot an idiot talking in Spanish. Andy ran up the stairs of the kid's area of the church. He asked that we all come down. The whole church wanted to pray for us before we left. As the prayer wrapped up, and the church members filed in to bid their farewells.
I was the last one in line so I saw every one's reaction to everyone else. Everyone was crying, smiling, or exchanging contact information. The pastor's wife came to me in a pool of tears. I embraced her gave her my sentiments. As the this cycle of farewells continued. I saw the reaction people had with each other. We just spent 4 in half days with this church and people who embody it. I saw the "human effect" the effect we have on each other. One that is powerful and is shared with whom is willing to feel it's effects. The effects of love, passion, trust, friendship.
It was cool to see everyone crying, and letting their emotions get the best of them. That we had developed a bond with this church and the congregation. A bond that was formed in 4 in half days. A bond that is now cherished, and bound to be remembered.
The Human Effect is shows that at the end of the day. All humans are the same in some many ways. But it also shows us that. When you knock down walls and build bridges and allow people to enter in. Crying, producing relationship's, and adding to your already big family. Is only hard cold evidence of the effect it has on all of us.
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
¡Viva Mexico!
As some may or may not know. I think way to much for my own good. I over think everything known to mankind. However there are a few exceptions (eating, going to the restroom). My mind is almost never in the present. It's either ahead in the uncertainty of the future, or in the set in stone past. This is no evidence of my uniqueness or hidden genius. If anything it shows that I have a lot of work in front of me.
I leave for Mexico tomorrow a country that I have been to multiple times. A country that I have family ties too.
As I get my mind prepared for what is to come my way. I have started to think of the present. Not just now, but of recent it's caught on. I've always known that I can't forecast the future, or undo my past. For the first time in my short lived life. I've come to terms of this real reality. For the first time I'm not scared, frustrated. I'm sure I will have my days.
But I have a new demeanor towards all this small stuff (if you look at the big picture). The big picture is I don't have control. The big picture is to take one day at a time. To constantly being dependent on the perfect one. I am not excluded from pain, and all that comes with it. But I confidently say that I know that God has it. I can finally shut up sit down, and wait for the never ending never failing wisdom, love and guidance etc. Boy I'm ready for Mexico!
I leave for Mexico tomorrow a country that I have been to multiple times. A country that I have family ties too.
As I get my mind prepared for what is to come my way. I have started to think of the present. Not just now, but of recent it's caught on. I've always known that I can't forecast the future, or undo my past. For the first time in my short lived life. I've come to terms of this real reality. For the first time I'm not scared, frustrated. I'm sure I will have my days.
But I have a new demeanor towards all this small stuff (if you look at the big picture). The big picture is I don't have control. The big picture is to take one day at a time. To constantly being dependent on the perfect one. I am not excluded from pain, and all that comes with it. But I confidently say that I know that God has it. I can finally shut up sit down, and wait for the never ending never failing wisdom, love and guidance etc. Boy I'm ready for Mexico!
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