As some may or may not know. I think way to much for my own good. I over think everything known to mankind. However there are a few exceptions (eating, going to the restroom). My mind is almost never in the present. It's either ahead in the uncertainty of the future, or in the set in stone past. This is no evidence of my uniqueness or hidden genius. If anything it shows that I have a lot of work in front of me.
I leave for Mexico tomorrow a country that I have been to multiple times. A country that I have family ties too.
As I get my mind prepared for what is to come my way. I have started to think of the present. Not just now, but of recent it's caught on. I've always known that I can't forecast the future, or undo my past. For the first time in my short lived life. I've come to terms of this real reality. For the first time I'm not scared, frustrated. I'm sure I will have my days.
But I have a new demeanor towards all this small stuff (if you look at the big picture). The big picture is I don't have control. The big picture is to take one day at a time. To constantly being dependent on the perfect one. I am not excluded from pain, and all that comes with it. But I confidently say that I know that God has it. I can finally shut up sit down, and wait for the never ending never failing wisdom, love and guidance etc. Boy I'm ready for Mexico!
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